Life has been dramatic, yet with nothing fruitful for past few months. It's wonderful returning to my favorite space after years in wilderness (other blogs, trying to do something and finally nothing works out). I hope my old buddies are still in here.

 

Meanwhile during years in wilderness, I managed to be in touch with my mother Gail, Tina Vander Byl and yeah, a mail to Cassie's on her birthday. I vowed to be in touch at least through e-mail, but had to settle with just an e-mail wishing on her birthday. The things I was once passionate about (blogging, e-mails, phone calls) suddenly becomes a burden.

 

It's funny that your thought that the way you selected to live with your life suddenly ends up nowhere, but frustration, disappointment and a feel of achieved nothing. The promising methods which you followed with a belief that it will lead you to greatness in life suddenly ends up leading no where and once again you feel like you are stranded where you have started years back, but with a difference that you've lost couple of years more than the previous time.

 

 I guess that's something inevitable in whatever way we live if we dream of becoming big. Dreams are fantastic and amazing...

 

Dreams gives you a hope of being something right at that very moment and the more you dream, meditate on the dream then there is a possibility that your whole system might tuned with your dream and thus inevitably you start chasing your dream. It's paradoxical that the life that you live in your dreams, which itself is something non-existence, is what helps you to tune your system in achieving something greater in real life.

 

You cannot rule out dreams completely as insane since there are always great people who have attained greatness with the help of their dreams. I guess, it's just that either we dream things that are merely dreams and start believing that this could be real; or we dream things that has potential to become true one day, but give up trying within years seeing no promise by following wrong methods and not doing enough sacrifices.

 

When your destination seems to be lost, going back to where you've started is the best way to identify the destination. It really doesn't hurt to be where it started; years back, but it's the years that are lost is what makes feel bad.

 

I guess, I have to start once more from the beginning. It's never late since the term itself is defined by human beings and it always differs from time to time. Alongside, it's wonderful to get connected to people who were there at the beginning too.

 

Hi fellas, how you doin? Ssup?